Sorry but this is just insane! I moved out of my parent's place in April to an apartment in a neighboring city. Just so happens that my upstairs neighbor is a co-worker of mine. At first I thought "oh neat! Someone I know lives here!" But now it's a "god dammit! STFU!" feeling. I understand the noises during the day most of the time. Walking around and doing normal chores doesn't bother me during appropriate times. It's the frequent sex and squealing of the mattress that is driving me up the wall. Tonight I was sleeping soundly and roused at one am by the creaking noises. Normally this noise starts around four or five am. Not everyday, just most, lol. I don't want to be an asshole, but the noise drives me nuts. Not even my white noise machine drowns it out.

Tonight I did my laundry after they were finished just because I couldn't sleep. I know, not very nice of me, but fuck it. I don't really care at this point if they can hear my dryer going at three in the morning.

Oh on another note my next door neighbor is letting their dog poo in the walkway between our two apts. Stinky! This person banged on my bathroom wall at about ten pm because they didn't appreciate my shower at that hour I guess, lol. I should not be thinking about gathering up the poopies and putting them on their doorstep, but sometimes it is all I can think about.

I should be more considerate about my shower habits as well I suppose.

And the upstairs neighbor's grandson needs to visit less...

So for a very long I have been in pain. My weaker leg has been hurting for what feels like forever. It was this deep ache that went from the front of the outside of my left foot and up the back of my calf. It would start to hurt at the beginning of my shift and then at the end of the work day I would be throbbing in pain. Most days I was taking tylenol or aleve before lunch to ease the pain up some. The pills do nothing. The only thing that did seem to help at all was night time tylenol or night time advil since they put me out. And being unconscious makes it more difficult to pick up on disabling pain.

There's been nights where I can't sleep because it hurt me so much. Days where I wanted to die at work. So many times I would massage my calf muscle while standing, sitting, doing anything because that ache was always there. My doctor told me there was nothing he could do for the pain. Told me to take advil. I wasn't looking for painkillers. I wanted the pain to stop and not come back. But he didn't have an answer, so I figured I was just stuck having to suffer with it.

Recently it's been very, very painful. I was starting to accepet the fact that I might have to start using a cane soon to take pressure off my leg while walking. Even considered trying a few out.

So a few weeks ago a customer that has been coming in for years came in to buy plants. She happens to be a Physical Therapist and usually we talk about how things are going with her business and she gives me tips on how to stretch while I am doing nothing at work. Well, she asked how I was and at first I said I was fine. She frowned and I told her that my left leg has been killing me.

So she steps around the register and looks at me for about five seconds. "Well your left leg is shorter than the right because of the way you're up on your toes on the left foot." I can't help standing like this... it's like ingrained in my brain to do this. So she suggested I get a heel lift for the left shoe to give the left foot something to rest on when I put that foot down. I shrug and figure I may as well try it since I'm already miserable. She also told me to get calcium and magnesium supplements.

anyway... The pain in my leg is nearly gone. It's been an amazing change. I'm so pleased to not be in pain all the time.
I mean it still hurts but not in a "I want to curl up and die" kind of way.

When I see that customer again I have to thank her. ^_^

I found an article on the web about a young woman who has the same disability as I do. From how she describes it her case is very similar to mine as are her feelings about social things like dating and all that fun stuff.

http://yourtango.com/200941714/dating-disability?page=0%2C2

Posting a link here so I can find it later :)

So glad I'm not the only one who feels this way.

Ouuu they made a new version of the Prisoner! Been excited about this for awhile. It's not a full blown series, just a mini-series with six eps, but woot. It's the only thing on tv that I made plans to go out of my way to watch in a very long time. But now that it's over I just want to watch it again. I also want to watch the old school version again since it was pretty evil in its own right.

This version of the Prisoner didn't seem as dark to me for some reason. Maybe it's because I walked into it knowing what to expect a lot of the time, but they just didn't seem like they wanted to break six like they did in the older version. It was more like they wanted to make him happy instead of finding out what information he had.

I really liked the actor who played Six in the new version. He did well. Did a nice job of being confused and generally put off by being stuck in The Village. He wasn't quite as angry as the older Six. Old school Six was always frowning at someone when he wasn't being knocked senseless.

Two was played very well in this version as well :) He's so nice about being evil that you have to kinda dislike and like him all at once.

But I will be buying this when it comes out on DVD.

I'm also considering getting a hoodie. One that says "There is no out. There is only in." Mmm Village Logic reminds me of life.

I love this song! When I hear it on the radio I have to turn it up just a bit, lol. :D

I haven't posted here for a little while.  It's bout time for an update I suppose.

Have to go to a lame meeting tomorrow night at work.  Should be boring and useless.

There's a rumor going around that they may try to take away my set schedule. >:-(  Why not just give me more reason to hate my job, lol.

Cassie got a part in the school play.  So I get to take her to practices... buy her lunch every night cause she is too picky to pack one, and take her to practice on my day off on saturday.  Guh... since when did I become a parental unit??  lol, I guess this isn't that big of a deal, but it's not very convenient for me.

Keavs is 75. ^_^  Shambor is right on my heels.  I'm doing the netherwing quests and skyguard quests again.  I also snuck into strat to see if I could kill Baron on a character that wasn't a druid.  The answer is yes, lol, and if you're wondering the mount didn't drop.  It never does for me.

I want to get my hair cut shorter.  Not completely chopped off, just trimmed or something idk.  Haven't really decided yet.

I wish my brother would drive his own car instead of mine. >.<

Wrote a bunch on Caelan and probably need to rework some stuff.  Somehow he's got to make it out of the story alive >.< 

Robin got promoted to specialist at work. :)  Joanne was really upset, but then that's normal for her, lol.  Poor lady is never, ever happy.  I hate to be mean but I hate talking to her, because she makes me hate my life.  It feels like a cement weight on my chest crushing the breath out of me when she comes too close. :-(  But they can't get rid of her just because no one likes her, lol.

That'll do for now.

:-)

Bleh, my vacation is almost over. :-(  I don't want to go back!!

I went with my mom to a massage class today.  We had to learn about Myofascial release, which is a fancy way of saying light massage that moves the skin around.  Basically it involves some really gentle massage that actually does some pretty amazing work.  Tugging on the skin (after you disarm the natural "get away from me" reflex that people don't know they have) and and squishing it around  is BETTER imo than using evil deep tissue to work out kinks in the body.   Most people have this idea that in order to work massage has to hurt.  This is wrong... it does not have to hurt to do you good... be nice to yourself and skip the painful deep work.  Go for medium pressure instead, lol, then your body won't wig out in the natural defense mechanism when the pressure is actually painful. 

Hell, go for the deep pressure if you feel you have to.  Just don't bitch when your trigger points get pissed off and you have to go for treatments more often and for longer periods. :-P

FYI fascia is goo that binds the body between skin and muscles. It's also around the internal organs in the body, and if you have ever skinned an animal (like a deer or rabbit) you would see this very thin layer of almost white webbing around the muscles (as long as you didn't cut too deep).  It's weird stuff. It melts if heated (like with friction when someone rubs you, or with a heating pad) and can become stuck together in tangled adhesions that actually can cause a lot of pain.

So while we were at the school on a break, I was wandering around in the little bookstore they have and I found a smooth stone with white and grey swirled in it.  You know what I thought of? lol, it's almost exactly what I pictured when Mathas gives Caelan a new comfort stone because his original one was dying.  This stone fits perfectly in my hand, and the kicker is that it's a worry stone.  Go figure... since I hadn't even thought of that when I was working on my story.  I mean it's not exactly the same as what Caelan's using since his stone is a living thing, but kinda crazy eh?  Yes, I did buy the rock :-D  it's sitting here with me as I type this.

Keavs hit 60 tonight! ^_^  Hopefully I can run BF soon to get rid of the quests I have for in there.  Not to mention I owe Bormas a run or ... several runs, lol.  I've not really been playing Keava much.  My cat form looks teh stupid with the new collar on imo, and my bear form looks totally gay.  I miss the old forms tbh.  I'm glad I was getting sick of playing her, lol, now that she looks ridiculous.  Only 20 more levels and Keavs will be 80! Won't that be a trip to have something other than my druid to actually maybe run something or pvp with?  I'm excited tbh.  I dunno how other people will take it if I decide to stick with keavs and ditch keava (which may happen sometime in the future idk yet.)

I also watched a movie tonight called the Painted Veil.  It's a 1920's movie about a Doctor who is living in China studying germs.  He marries Kitty (who he just met at a party and decided he liked her. She married him to get her mother off her back >.< ) and they go to China together to research the Cholera epidemic that's been going on there.  I liked the movie (even if I did fall asleep once. Not my fault... I was up early today, lol), but what actually struck me fairly hard was a beautiful piano piece they kept playing throughout the film.  It's called Gnossienne No. 1 and was composed by Erik Satie.  Music like this makes me wish I could play, but I am content just being able to hear it since I don't have the patience or the fingers to play the piano, lol.

You can check it out here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIVp05sEPhE

and a nice guitar version here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DzUxrHGlbdI&feature=related

I really should go to sleep.  I'm sure my body does not appreciate being kept up at all hours of the night just because I would rather do other things.  Our teacher was right today when she said that we as a culture do not respect sleep.  We view it as lazy, a waste of time, when it shouldn't be.  I do think sleeping is kind of a waste in a way, lol, just because it interrupts other things.  But I also learned something kinda cool today.  If you don't dream at night, which some people don't (which means for one reason or another their body is evading a part of the sleep cycle) you will dream during the day to sort out the things in the world that don't make sense to you.  I rarely daydream (unless you count spacing out to write as daydreaming, lol) but I do often have vivid dreams at night.  I've always kind of thought they meant something, at least to me, but I guess it could be just random brain spew of overloaded data.

Seriously though... going to take out my contacts and pass out for a few hours, lol.

My birthday was over a couple hours ago. Hehe we went out to eat at Outback.  Was pretty good food and I ate way more than I should have.  oh well, I enjoyed it. 

Honestly though... I don't like it when my birthday rolls around.  It's a blatant reminder of things that could have been very, very different.  And every year it's like a black hole sucking away at me.  I know I should be thankful that my life turned out as good as it has, but sometimes I can't help but feel cheated.  I mean if my mom had been able to carry my twin and I to full term... think how different that would make things.  It doesn't do any good to brood over this.  I know that, but that doesn't stop me from doing it every year, lol.  Too bad we can't ask for a do over.  I bet I'm not the only one who sometimes wishes things would have turned out differently.

I'm pretty tired and full, so I am going to go to bed before I ramble on about anything else.  :)

I've been leveling my rogue with Bormas, who is leveling a Shammy named Shambor.  Keavs is 54 now, and I couldn't be happier.  I have been having a blast playing her, but it's a lot more fun to play when Bormas is on, tbh.  We can make some huge, risky pulls and still not die which rocks.  Whereas if I screw up while soloing and Vanish is on cooldown or Evasion is done I may die.  Not that dying is the end of the world, but it's not the most convenient thing in game.

Anyway, been talking to Bormas a lot lately about non wow stuff. And it's funny how much we have in common.  He's got an awesome sense of humor, not to mention a sweet nature that just sucks me in.  Not that I am complaining at all.  It's nice to feel at ease talking to him.   I like him a lot. ^_^

Other than that... things around here are pretty meh. 

So tonight in class Mr Baker pulled Cassie and I aside when we were breaking up to do our material. Tip testing is next week and with everything that's been going on here we didn't get the minimum of classes in for the month. We could have if I had nagged my sister about going, but I didn't feel like bothering.  So she's absolutely pissed at me that she has to wear her brown belt for five months instead of three.  I refuse to pay for private make up classes. I mean I could... but No... I'm not gonna.  People in class are like "oh, you're not testing... sorry."

Me, I don't give a crap about testing. It doesn't hurt me one bit to hold back on the belt tests.  I need all the extra time I can get to be honest.  But Cassie... she wants to test the very second she can, and she is mad that she can't.  Idk  I feel like a jerk in  a way.  Maybe I should have forced us to go when she got Eavie and stuff, but it didn't seem worth it at the time.

On another note... I wrote out an outline for Caelan and honestly things look really, really bad for him.  I am not sure I want to follow through with it, lol.  Pretty much everyone suffers a good deal at my hands.  I feel especially bad for Fletcher and Daniel who really have nothing to do with Caelan's culture and yet they have to put up with crap because they took him in, hehe.  Meh, it's entertaining me while I am at work, so I may as well write it out and stuff it away on google docs.

Keavs hit 53 tonight.

Don't have to worry about tiger set for a few more months, lolz.

^_^ I should probably be butthurt like Cassie, but I am actually happy about it.